Forget the one week thing

So, I decided to just say fuck it, and do it the way that I know will work for me. As of right now I've only lost 1.2 pounds, so I don't get my treat, which is my red earrings. But, I mean, at least I'm losing something. Slow and steady wins the race I guess. I do hope to drop my 2 pounds here soon though. My little goal is to get out of the 200's. I want to get below 205. Right now I'm at 206.4. By October 17th, I wanted to be down 18 pounds. Then I'd be at 189.6. Which is below 190. Good. : ) I did start running. I'm on my 2nd week. It was pretty hard. I did quit smoking as well. I don't drink sweet tea. On my days off of running, I tend to overeat. I need to fix that. That's probably what stopped my weight loss this week. I ate a little bit of candy. Let's try not overeating. Eat what I want, just not too much of it. Eat a serving size of candy. Well, that's all for now. I've got to get ready for work.

I need peace of mind

I'm basically going insane over here. I'm tired of reading all these blogs about myself trying to get on track. Fuck it all in the ass. I've gone two days without smoking now, and I'm doing pretty good with that. I'm still dealing with sugar issues. That'll straighten itself out. I hopefully will start running for real on Sunday. I'm going to ask my fiancee to help me out. I'm going to try this little thing out, and see if it helps me out.
MY REASON
To be healthy. To look good. To succeed. To feel amazing.
MY GOAL FOR WEEK 1 (starting Sunday 8/10/08)
Run for 30 minutes 5x. Don't eat sweets. (includes sweet tea, candy, etc.) but I can have lemonade, and what not.

I need to relearn portion sizes, and not expect to lose 2 pounds every week.
After I get paid again, I'll be buying fruits and vegetables. I should be getting my 5 a day.

The 4th is Rolling Around

No, not the 4th of July, but the 4th of August. This is pay day. I have a feeling that this is going to be for real. I'm already getting serious. I'm so excited about spending this extra money on groceries. I've basically cut out smoking. It has been making me sick. I should be starting running again on Sunday. I'm not sure if I'm doing mornings or nights, but I'm doing it. I'm ready to jump on that treadmill. I miss running so much. I miss how thin I was, I miss how toned I was, and I miss how in shape I was. I can't wait until Sunday. I'm ready for this!